[ Every shift and movement they make is in the service of making this more comfortable, more enjoyable, rather than less so. It's a far cry from how so many of their recent interactions have been, and maybe that's part of the reason that Jack wants to keep it going. This can't end well, even now he knows that in the back of his head, but he also can't bring himself to care. At least not right now.
And so they're kissing, tongues in each other's mouths, hands gripping onto each other. Jack's own grip grows more firm, and his movements with his tongue that much more decisive, swishing through Gabriel's mouth with a sort of desperate experience. Because the second that one of them pulls away or lets go, this strange moment will be over and he has no idea what to do when they reach that point.
So he'll put it off, even if that means putting more heat and intensity into the kiss, his fingers kneading into the knotted muscle at the side of Gabriel's neck. Their foreheads press tight against each other as he deepens the kiss, exploring Gabriel's mouth with his tongue and learning just how he tastes.
His heart's pounding, his face is flushed, and it's been a long while since he's felt quite this alive. ]
[Gabriel is surprised at how natural this feels, how easily they slip into this even with the gulf between them and the amount of time it's been since he imagines either of them have let anyone get this close. At the same time, that's what makes the most sense. Of course it's Jack--he's been the one constant for most of Gabriel's life, and it's only circumstance that's prevented them from doing this sooner. Maybe it's the alcohol talking, or maybe he's just trying to convince himself that this is okay and not eventually disastrous, but in this moment, it feels okay. Like this is just the logical conclusion of the thirty years they've spent knowing each other.
Very quickly, however, just kissing is not enough. They've already started to undress from the party but put that by the wayside once they started talking. Gabriel is in a slightly greater state of undress but Jack is still wearing the dress shirt from the evening, and as he continues to deepen the kiss, he decides he's going to do something about it.
That hand on Jack's chest starts working at buttons, sliding inside the shirt and across his pecs as he gets the first two undone.]
[ Could it really be said that this is thirty years in the making? It's not as if Jack had spent any of that time considering this as a possibility, beyond random what-ifs that had flitted in and out of his mind just as quickly. Still, it was a long time to know someone, and it's not just a matter of being friends who'd kept up with each other and hung out from time to time. No, not like normal people. Their lives had been intertwined for most of those years, their friendship in so many ways serving as the backbone of Overwatch.
Which is why when one started to deteriorate, so had the other. It's hard at this point to say which had come first.
But that's a long history to build on, and also a long period of tension that they've been searching for ways to work through. Brawling each other was the usual method, but this isn't so bad either, is it?
Gabriel gets bolder, more exploratory with his hands, and as his rough palm slides over the bare skin of Jack's chest, Jack makes a noise in the back of his throat, mainly borne from surprise but also interest -- a noise that's caught in Gabriel's mouth. Jack's face has been flushed, but that heat begins to move down to the rest of his body, making him almost uncomfortably hot all over.
He doesn't stop Gabriel, instead shifting his hips to move himself closer, making him easier to access. The kissing continues, Jack pulling back only enough to scrape his teeth over Gabriel's bottom lip before sliding his tongue into his mouth yet again. ]
[Gabriel is doing his very best to seem confident, especially considering that Jack theoretically has more experience at this than him. The good news is that he's very good at pretending, and he can feign expertise for as long as he wants. Jack is receptive, at least, but he's not sure if it's because they're both scared of what might happen when they stop.
By now, however, it's far too late to back down, and if Gabriel is good at anything, it's improvising.
He's still straddling Jack, and Jack isn't telling him to stop, so he starts to try his luck. With the buttons going one after another, he's quick to start sloughing Jack's shirt, sliding it off his shoulders and down his arms. He'll let Jack finish the rest of it, immediately moving his hands back to his chest.
There are scars he doesn't recognize, and though part of him thinks he should maybe back off, Gabriel can't get enough of it. He needs to learn all the differences between the Jack he knows and this new Jack, and doing it with his hands is the easiest way to do it.]
[ This is going a lot faster than Jack ever could have guessed, but maybe he should have known that Gabriel would opt to double-down in a situation like this, rather than admitting that he was in over his head. There's no such thing for Gabriel Reyes, apparently. Or that's what he wants everyone to believe, anyway.
The point remains that removal of clothing is now part of the equation, and that's just one more step in a direction he's not sure either of them are actually ready for. Jack's pretty sure he'll know when it's time to put an end to this, but it seems they're not quite there yet.
He pulls back from the kiss just long enough to wriggle his arms and get the shirt the rest of the way off, the sleeves pushing past his wrists until he can grab for the garment and toss it aside. Then he leans back in to Gabriel's touch, mouths meeting again as rough hands move over rougher skin.
It doesn't take long for Jack to realize what Gabriel is doing. It's subtle, but his hands linger in the places where there are new scars, evidence of injuries that Jack sustained after Overwatch. Some of them, like the ones on his face, are from the explosion. But when Gabriel's hands loop around to Jack's back and land on a particularly tender scar that's there, Jack goes immediately stiff and jerks back, away from his touch.
His eyes squeeze shut as the memories rush back. The hot Cairo sun beating down on him, Reaper's gravelly voice, and Ana's face when she got a glimpse of the wraith's face. A single word, uttered in horror: Gabriel? ]
[Ah. Well, Gabriel expected this to happen sooner or later. For as nice as this felt, the two of them have too much combined baggage to sustain this for more than a few minutes. He'd like to continue, but it was inevitable that they'd get caught up in their heads about it. Jack was just the one who broke first, but the way he jerks back is a little unexpected.]
What?
[It's difficult to hide the disappointment in his voice. His hand is hovering over the scar tissue he brushed over a moment ago, and he's surprised to feel a little bit concerned. Is it sensitive? Did he hurt Jack, touching the old wound? The other hand is firm on his shoulder.]
[ It's just as strange for Jack to hear the concern in Gabriel's voice and to see it on his face when he manages to open his eyes again. It's a rare thing, though it has happened before: back during the Crisis when all of them were catching their breath after escaping a barrage of Omnic gunfire, or during the Overwatch days when Jack had walked into Gabriel's office looking a little more weary than usual.
At this point, Gabriel's certainly shown that he still cares in his own way. From looking after Jack when he'd been transformed, to remaining at his side when things came to a head with the Storm, and now this. ]
It's nothing.
[ That's a big fat lie, but Jack definitely isn't in a mindset where he can explain what killed the moment. He half-turns from Gabriel again, reaching to grab for an undershirt he'd left on the bed earlier when they'd changed for the party. Gabriel will get a glimpse of the ugly scar on his back before Jack pulls the shirt on, covering it up again. ]
[Gabriel's not stupid, and Jack has never been particularly good at lying to him. The sheer physical reaction says enough, and he doesn't push for any more physical contact. He sits on the bed, watching Jack get his clothes and pull the plug on the whole thing.
He can't say he's not disappointed, so when Jack turns around and reveals the scar on his back, Gabriel reaches out and tries to take him by the arm. He doubts the physical contact will make him feel any better, really. That's a scar Gabriel doesn't recognize, so he knows where this is going. The only question is whether or not Jack will tell him the truth about who gave it to him.]
[ When Jack feels Gabriel's touch at his arm, his immediate urge is to shove him away, but he manages to bite down on it. Really, this isn't Gabriel's fault, even though it also kind of is, but he knows that lashing out at him for something he hasn't yet done won't fix anything. If he's learned anything over these months with Gabriel here, it's that. ]
No.
[ He shakes his head, slowly tugging his arm away from Gabriel's touch instead. It'd be easier if Gabriel would just move back to his own bed so they can act like none of this ever happened, but he isn't going to let go that easily. Jack heaves out a sigh and bows his head, rubbing at his eyes.
The scar had ached for a good few days after he first got the wound, but it doesn't anymore. It's been years at this point, strange as that is to realize. ]
It was a pain in the ass when I got it, though.
[ Which might be enough for Gabriel to put two and two together. ]
[Jack might not act on the impulse, but Gabriel feels his arm tense and that's enough. He withdraws, and doesn't try to touch him again. The minimal space between them suddenly seems yawning, and he's not sure what he should be doing. His hands drop uselessly to his side.]
Looks like it was from a shotgun.
[So, that settles that. Gabriel knows he shouldn't feel guilty for things he hasn't done yet, and will likely never do given their displacement, but the fact is that he can't expect Jack to separate past from present. With that realization, he finally moves to the other bed, letting the mattress sink beneath him.]
[ Yes, it was from a shotgun. Gabriel would know exactly what that kind of scarring would look like, having inflicted those wounds more times than he can properly recall now. He's obviously figured it out, but Jack's fighting a tightness in his chest that makes it impossible for him to respond in any verbal way.
It's not like there's much to say, after all. They both now know what happened to throw a wrench into what they'd been doing, and no matter how many hurdles they leap over in their relationship, there's always going to be others that they trip over.
Jack can't bring himself to say that it's fine or all right, and he knows the words would come out sounding hollow. So he just shakes his head, relieved for the distance between them now that Gabriel's retreated to the other bed. ]
We should just... get some rest.
[ He draws his hand across his eyes and then leans over to extinguish the candles that had been providing the small room some meager light. Then he stretches out on the bed and turns his back to Gabriel, eyes shutting as he wills himself to fall asleep. Thankfully, the alcohol helps with that. Once the room stops feeling like it's spinning, he's out. ]
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And so they're kissing, tongues in each other's mouths, hands gripping onto each other. Jack's own grip grows more firm, and his movements with his tongue that much more decisive, swishing through Gabriel's mouth with a sort of desperate experience. Because the second that one of them pulls away or lets go, this strange moment will be over and he has no idea what to do when they reach that point.
So he'll put it off, even if that means putting more heat and intensity into the kiss, his fingers kneading into the knotted muscle at the side of Gabriel's neck. Their foreheads press tight against each other as he deepens the kiss, exploring Gabriel's mouth with his tongue and learning just how he tastes.
His heart's pounding, his face is flushed, and it's been a long while since he's felt quite this alive. ]
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Very quickly, however, just kissing is not enough. They've already started to undress from the party but put that by the wayside once they started talking. Gabriel is in a slightly greater state of undress but Jack is still wearing the dress shirt from the evening, and as he continues to deepen the kiss, he decides he's going to do something about it.
That hand on Jack's chest starts working at buttons, sliding inside the shirt and across his pecs as he gets the first two undone.]
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Which is why when one started to deteriorate, so had the other. It's hard at this point to say which had come first.
But that's a long history to build on, and also a long period of tension that they've been searching for ways to work through. Brawling each other was the usual method, but this isn't so bad either, is it?
Gabriel gets bolder, more exploratory with his hands, and as his rough palm slides over the bare skin of Jack's chest, Jack makes a noise in the back of his throat, mainly borne from surprise but also interest -- a noise that's caught in Gabriel's mouth. Jack's face has been flushed, but that heat begins to move down to the rest of his body, making him almost uncomfortably hot all over.
He doesn't stop Gabriel, instead shifting his hips to move himself closer, making him easier to access. The kissing continues, Jack pulling back only enough to scrape his teeth over Gabriel's bottom lip before sliding his tongue into his mouth yet again. ]
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By now, however, it's far too late to back down, and if Gabriel is good at anything, it's improvising.
He's still straddling Jack, and Jack isn't telling him to stop, so he starts to try his luck. With the buttons going one after another, he's quick to start sloughing Jack's shirt, sliding it off his shoulders and down his arms. He'll let Jack finish the rest of it, immediately moving his hands back to his chest.
There are scars he doesn't recognize, and though part of him thinks he should maybe back off, Gabriel can't get enough of it. He needs to learn all the differences between the Jack he knows and this new Jack, and doing it with his hands is the easiest way to do it.]
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The point remains that removal of clothing is now part of the equation, and that's just one more step in a direction he's not sure either of them are actually ready for. Jack's pretty sure he'll know when it's time to put an end to this, but it seems they're not quite there yet.
He pulls back from the kiss just long enough to wriggle his arms and get the shirt the rest of the way off, the sleeves pushing past his wrists until he can grab for the garment and toss it aside. Then he leans back in to Gabriel's touch, mouths meeting again as rough hands move over rougher skin.
It doesn't take long for Jack to realize what Gabriel is doing. It's subtle, but his hands linger in the places where there are new scars, evidence of injuries that Jack sustained after Overwatch. Some of them, like the ones on his face, are from the explosion. But when Gabriel's hands loop around to Jack's back and land on a particularly tender scar that's there, Jack goes immediately stiff and jerks back, away from his touch.
His eyes squeeze shut as the memories rush back. The hot Cairo sun beating down on him, Reaper's gravelly voice, and Ana's face when she got a glimpse of the wraith's face. A single word, uttered in horror: Gabriel? ]
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What?
[It's difficult to hide the disappointment in his voice. His hand is hovering over the scar tissue he brushed over a moment ago, and he's surprised to feel a little bit concerned. Is it sensitive? Did he hurt Jack, touching the old wound? The other hand is firm on his shoulder.]
What is it?
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At this point, Gabriel's certainly shown that he still cares in his own way. From looking after Jack when he'd been transformed, to remaining at his side when things came to a head with the Storm, and now this. ]
It's nothing.
[ That's a big fat lie, but Jack definitely isn't in a mindset where he can explain what killed the moment. He half-turns from Gabriel again, reaching to grab for an undershirt he'd left on the bed earlier when they'd changed for the party. Gabriel will get a glimpse of the ugly scar on his back before Jack pulls the shirt on, covering it up again. ]
We shouldn't be doing this.
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[Gabriel's not stupid, and Jack has never been particularly good at lying to him. The sheer physical reaction says enough, and he doesn't push for any more physical contact. He sits on the bed, watching Jack get his clothes and pull the plug on the whole thing.
He can't say he's not disappointed, so when Jack turns around and reveals the scar on his back, Gabriel reaches out and tries to take him by the arm. He doubts the physical contact will make him feel any better, really. That's a scar Gabriel doesn't recognize, so he knows where this is going. The only question is whether or not Jack will tell him the truth about who gave it to him.]
Does it hurt?
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No.
[ He shakes his head, slowly tugging his arm away from Gabriel's touch instead. It'd be easier if Gabriel would just move back to his own bed so they can act like none of this ever happened, but he isn't going to let go that easily. Jack heaves out a sigh and bows his head, rubbing at his eyes.
The scar had ached for a good few days after he first got the wound, but it doesn't anymore. It's been years at this point, strange as that is to realize. ]
It was a pain in the ass when I got it, though.
[ Which might be enough for Gabriel to put two and two together. ]
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Looks like it was from a shotgun.
[So, that settles that. Gabriel knows he shouldn't feel guilty for things he hasn't done yet, and will likely never do given their displacement, but the fact is that he can't expect Jack to separate past from present. With that realization, he finally moves to the other bed, letting the mattress sink beneath him.]
Sorry, I shouldn't have--just forget it.
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It's not like there's much to say, after all. They both now know what happened to throw a wrench into what they'd been doing, and no matter how many hurdles they leap over in their relationship, there's always going to be others that they trip over.
Jack can't bring himself to say that it's fine or all right, and he knows the words would come out sounding hollow. So he just shakes his head, relieved for the distance between them now that Gabriel's retreated to the other bed. ]
We should just... get some rest.
[ He draws his hand across his eyes and then leans over to extinguish the candles that had been providing the small room some meager light. Then he stretches out on the bed and turns his back to Gabriel, eyes shutting as he wills himself to fall asleep. Thankfully, the alcohol helps with that. Once the room stops feeling like it's spinning, he's out. ]